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Most of us are addicted to entertainment, whether it be computer games, Tv-series, movies, going out clubbing, shopping or any other “pastime” – but we often tend to see this  as perfectly normal and do not question how or why entertainment exist or why we are addicted to it. So here I will open the point of entertainment up for myself and for everyone else that has this addiction to walk through which me. I invite you to walk with me through self-forgiveness, speak the statements out loud for ourselves and realize what entertainment actually is in this world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define, believe and experience that entertainment is “innocent fun”

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe and experience that I have right to entertainment in defining entertainment as a “pastime” that is required for me to “wind down” and “relax”

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe, define and experience that entertainment is the normal way to “wind down” and “relax”

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define, experience and believe that entertainment is a “treat” that I am given or give myself as a “moment of freedom” in opposition to “work”, “occupation”, “obligations” and “responsibilities”

I forgive myself that I have not accepted or allowed myself to see, realize and understand that entertainment has been created and designed deliberately and specifically in opposition to work to create the delusion of freedom and so to make everyone accept their slaving for survival through the belief that “it is worth it”

“I see that my participation in things like porn, movies, video games, hobbies, buying things that I didn’t need but allowed me to entertain myself or ‘feel good’, were all actually based on the same point – which was to continue feeding and sustaining my mind consciousness system so that I would be able to maintain the ability to stay ‘in control’ as my ego as personalities which required that I have sufficient energy in order to maintain my ‘work personalities’ which would be what I used in order to cope with and ‘deal with’ me experiencing myself has compromising myself within having to work and having to do things that I did not want to do in the name of survival and supporting myself. The personalities and the energy that I would get from entertaining myself and providing myself with distractions with any excess money that I had was what I depended on to ‘get me through’ my work weeks.” – Joe Kou

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that fashion, clubbing, shopping, TV shows, movies, celebrities, sports, computer games and sex as entertainment is natural and normal and simply here and that I have never questioned why or how entertainment is created, why it exists in the world and who I am within, as and in relationship with entertainment

I forgive myself that I have not accepted or allowed myself to realize that entertainment is created as a manifestation that exists to generate consumption and profit for the few, hope for the poor and enslaved and serve to keep the system of abuse and deception going.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself justify for myself allowing myself to be entertained, in the belief that I need it to “unwind” and “relax”

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define and experience entertainment as “freedom” and thus to when I participate in entertainment, such as watching movies and TV-series or going out drinking coffee, feeling “free”

I’d like to pause for a moment here and make it clear that all of these points I am mentioning as entertainment, are not “wrong” or “bad” – so it is not about stopping watching TV-series for example or that it is not cool to go out and drink coffee. What I am writing out here is who I have been within entertainment and why entertainment is created from that perspective. So it is not about the physical acts themselves – but about how we have used them to abuse ourselves and each other.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience myself “free” when I “pass time” with entertainment

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself use entertainment to “pass the time”

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see time as something that has to be “passed”

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to waste time and life on passing time through preoccupying myself with entertainment

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to immerse myself in entertainment and within that create, manifest and participate in an alternate reality that I can submerge myself in and hide from myself and from the world and hide what is actually here as this world from myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create, manifest and participate within and as an imaginary reality based on entertainment where I can deceive myself into believing that the world is a wonderful place, that freedom and happiness is possible and that everything is fine in the world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be tamed and tame myself through entertainment in subduing and numbing myself through watching TV all day and in allowing myself to be addicted to entertaining myself through TV, Movies, sex, relationships, food, drinks, clubbing, sport and anything else through which I can create an alternate reality so that I don’t have to face myself here

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe and experience that watching TV is saving me from my experience of myself in my life situation that I experience myself incapable of changing and stopping and as such experience and believe that I can escape from through watching TV

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want, need and desire to watch TV series every day, all day for the rest of my life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to watch TV series all day, every day

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience, see, believe and define the TV as a friend, as a support, as a safety

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to pretend and deceive myself into believing that watching TV many hours pr. Day as normal and acceptable because everyone else is doing it

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accept, believe, define and experience TV as a parent that supports me unconditionally, to which I can turn and be embraced and stop my experience of and as myself – not realizing that I have been using TV to suppress myself and hide from myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I could escape my life and my experience of myself and seeing what is actually going on in the world by watching TV series

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe, experience, define and accept the silence I experience within and as me when I watch TV series, as “relaxation” and “freedom from my thoughts” when in fact what I am doing through watching TV is suppressing myself and hiding from myself

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize the net that is covering the world of entertainment that exists to keep all of humanity enslaved in the delusion and illusion that everything is alright and well in the world, to keep all of us from realizing ourselves as who and what we have created ourselves as and who and what we have accepted ourselves to become

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that entertainment exists for my sake, for my pleasure, for my happiness, for my relaxation – instead of seeing, realizing and understanding that this is exactly the belief and self-deception within which I have kept myself enslaved to and by entertainment, not realizing that entertainment existed for me to remain enslaved to, within and as the mind

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am kept safe when I watch TV series and that the life and world that is portrayed by the TV series is the real reality – when in fact I know that it is not and that I am hiding the real world from myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that participating in entertainment could free me from myself as I experienced myself and from the world as suffering, abuse, meaninglessness and pain

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to deliberately – and self-deceptively – use entertainment to suppress myself and numb down my emotions and experiences of myself and what exists in and as the world so as to not have to face myself and my creation

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel good about hiding in and through entertainment because then I don’t have to face the truth about myself, the world or my creation

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that entertainment is just something I do that do now affect me or influence my life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a constant and continuous want, need and desire for constant stimuli through entertainment to distract myself and ensure that I remain separated from myself and from the physical in and as a delusional reality in and as my mind

I forgive myself that I have not accepted or allowed myself to realize that the addiction to stimuli through entertainment is in fact addiction to the mind, to energy and thus to existing in separation of and from myself in and as the physical

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that entertainment through passive reception where I am deliberately separated from and separating myself from the physical and thus from myself, is real fun, real freedom, real comfortability – instead of seeing, realizing and understanding that the experience I get from entertainment is not real, as it is preprogrammed specifically so I would remain enslaved within and as self-deception and delusion

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to submit myself to entertainment based on the want, need and desire to not face myself as who and what I have accepted and allowed myself to become

I forgive myself that I have not accepted or allowed myself to realize, that while I am amusing myself with entertainment, deliberately with the aim of avoiding to see what is in and of the world as well as myself, beings are suffering and dying without anyone of us who actually can make a difference do so, simply because we fear facing ourselves as self-responsible for who we are and for what is here in and as this world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to prioritize entertainment over actually living and expressing myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I in fact was experiencing the world when I was watching TV and that I was actually experiencing life, relationships and fun when I was watching TV, when in fact I was merely preoccupying myself with and within the mind as projected onto a screen

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to justify for myself entertaining myself based on the belief and fear that if I don’t, I will be an outcast at work or at school or with the friend group because I don’t know what they are talking about when they are talking about the newest episodes of some TV-series, and because of this have made sure that I am up to date with the latest movies and series to not “stand out” and risk being ridiculed and excluded

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ridicule and exclude others, when they were not participating in watching a particular TV show or movie and within that feel and experience myself as “important”, “knowledgeable” and “in front” without caring for or considering that person’s experience of themselves as I exclude and ridicule them

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create an entire world and environment for myself and those in my circle, revolving around watching the same TV series and movies and news programs and to experience it as perfectly normal and acceptable that this is all our lives revolve around and that we are in fact participating in something valuable

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see, define, experience and believe it to be a sign of success that I have watched the latest episodes of series and watched the latest movies

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create hype around certain movies and movie releases and TV series and to, together with others compound and accumulate this hype, in placing value on these movies and TV series as though they are in fact of real value – while having allowed the world to go by without me paying any form of attention or care to what is actually going on in the world and what is actually going on within myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the TV to be the god of me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become obsessed with celebrities and to believe that celebrities are in fact worth more and more valuable than everyone else on the planet and to grant them that value by preoccupying myself with thoughts about them and energetic reactions of excitement when I see them in movies and magazines and to purchase such movies and magazines deliberately to partake in the “shine” that I believe, feel, experience and accept celebrities as having

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to deceive and convince myself into believing that watching TV, playing computer games, going out clubbing and showing, watching sports is not an addiction or an indication that something is off because “everyone does it” – it is socially acceptable and as such we all participate in keeping the delusion up front, so that we collectively – those who have access to TV’s, money and entertainment – can hide and pretend that we have no responsibility whatsoever for what is actually happening in the world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not care – or give a shit – about what is happening in the world – even in my own body and inside myself – because all I care about is getting my next fix of entertainment

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to turn on the TV because I experienced it as comforting and that if I did not have it on, I felt restless, anxious and fearful of being alone with myself in silence

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create, manifest, accept and participate within and as a general addiction to external stimuli through which I make sure that I remain constantly separated from myself so that I won’t realize myself and face what I have accepted and allowed in and as self-responsibility

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to deceive myself into fearing and believing that life without constant entertainment will be “unbearable”, “boring” and “trapped” and that as long as I keep stimulating myself, I will remain “free” – instead of realizing how I have deceived myself into seeing everything in reverse and that it is in fact my addiction to entertainment that is enslaving and in which I have allowed myself to become enslaved.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to rather want to sit at home and watch TV than actually going out interacting with other humans, with life and with myself because when I do, I experience everything as “too close”, “too real” and “too complicated” compared to life in the TV series and my experiences of and as myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself let my addiction to the mind and to thinking and to creating images, words and emotions manifest in and onto the physical reality in the form of entertainment

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a want, need and desire as an addiction to the mind to constantly and continuously want more and more stimuli and information and energy to feed off of – and to have created entertainment as a secure, certain and easily obtainable source for my addiction

In relation to this I read something quite interesting here:

“…the ego is a construct of thought. It is a thought form, or rather a bundle of thought forms, one that people identify themselves with. When people identify with form, which is inherently subject to impermanence, they become anxious to try and secure themselves by adding more forms to the bundle they identify with. Celebrities are seen as having great security and comfort because of all the forms we associate them with, whereas the so-called nobodies in society are thought of as not having much security at all.

Because the ego is constantly looking for more and more forms to consume and add to itself, the ego-identified mind becomes a very noisy place to be in. There is a constant flow of compulsive thinking, usually repetitive thinking with a very low signal-to-noise ratio; thinking that is not at all creative, but feeds on itself in an infinite loop of self-obsessed mental noise that few people would consciously choose to have in their minds.

And this is one aspect of why people have a craving for entertainment: the content of their compulsive thinking is so unpleasant, that they would rather have their mental noise quota filled by derived thoughts that they get from an external source.”

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use entertainment in the belief that I through it, can numb down the thoughts in my mind, when in fact what entertainment is, is an extension of my mind that I have manifested and projected outside, separate from me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become consumed by and within and consuming entertainment to apparently “fill up” the “hole/lack” I perceive myself to be – when in fact, I can never become fulfilled through entertainment as it is an insatiable desire for something separate from me, when in fact it is through my acceptance of myself as separate to begin with, that have created the experience, manifestation and acceptance of myself as “lacking”.

I will leave this part here for now and return with PART 2 tomorrow including more points of self-forgiveness and commitment statements. I can see as I open this point of entertainment up, the role it has had in my life, while in fact I have believed it to be completely and entirely insignificant and irrelevant.

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