Ok so this is where I am writing from right now: A sense that it is time to let go. That something inside of me is saying goodbye, is feeling sorrow over giving itself up, over realizing that it was not real. What am I speaking about specifically? Love Sex Relationships And I thought that I was concerned with the needs of the world, with accension, with higher levels and plans. No I am not. My mind works from here, from a place where being human is about be together or TWO GATHER I am finally in a place where I am starting to feel familiar with being in my own skin My inside is telling me right now: “It is time to let go”. Very gently, it is speaking to me. It is me speaking to me. “you can let go now” What I must let go is all the preprogrammed ideas Ive had about myself, about life and existence in general. I have realized that this is never going to end, the journey is eternal right here. And yet, there is something that has got to go. My eating and watchinh TV are just plain symptoms, not the hardest to let go of. It is being with other people, being seen as ME by other people, that I must let go of. It is being my mothers sweethart on one hand. Her priestess on another, and the devil of her secret thoughts in a hidden thirth. It is being seen as a woman, a capable intelligent woman, in her productive age. I guess you could apply words of your own, where ever you find yourself in this existence. In the program, in the mother matrix. I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to withdraw from myself, to fit into the world, to be a part of the system I forgive myself for having allowed and accepted myself to desperately wanting to be part of the system, of the marriage and kids system, of the smart and sexy system, of the beauty and fame system, of the image system I forgive myself for having allowed and accepted myself to believe that I would sieze to exist if I did not create a strong and interesting personality I forgive myself for allowing and acccepting myself to compromise all truth in me, to fit into the system I forgive myself for having allowed and accepted myself to beat myself with thoughts of being wrong, gulity, arrogant, too much and ugly I forgive myself! I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to be honest with other people out of fear of being seen as arrogant I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to be free inside my body, let it move, play, sing, dance, act out of fear of being seen as arrogant by other people I forgive myself for not allowing and accepting myself to be who I am, out of fear of stepping over others boundaries. I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to suppress myself as a way to let others come through, so that I would not come of as egotistical Goodbye guild! Goodbye sorrow! You are welcome and I shall forgive you as you are in me as me, I you choose to stay for the right. I am stopping myself here, right HERE.